I both hate and amuse myself.
And I HATE decision making!!!

So here's the scene:
Sarah, Sammy and Joey's cuz, is having a grad party! Joey mentioned it last time I talked with him a week ago but I totally forgot. I borrowed Twilight off Sammy the other day, and finished it today; good book, I recommend reading it. Anywho I txted her that I finished it n such and she asked if I wanted the second and I said sure and asked if she wanted to go for a walk, but she said she had that grad party to go to and invited me. I said that as much fun as that sounds I'd have to pass. Then she told me Jake, her boytoy, was gunna be there. And I laughed, amused at myself for the hesitancy of myself. And asked when. She said after church and I told her to have Joey to decide for me, else I'll poke him to death. A lil while later Joey calls and I'm like decide for me!!! And he's like, I dunno, do what you want. I'm like. . . eeeehhhhh T-T and then I asked if Bobby, their other cuz was gunna be there. And he said yes, and I once again laughed at myself. I really respect and admire Bobby...for some reason. I dunno, the memories I have of him, though are few, were apparently really good, and I would love an excuse to see him (though apparently he now has a fiance...). So I sighed and flipped a coin, and the coin said no. ... ... ... damn fates, since when did I ever listen to them! I asked if anyone would mind if I went, even though I knew Jake was also going, and he snorted and said that people bring people no one knows all the time, so that made me feel a bit better. I mean, I'm practically part of Joey's family, immediate family anyway, as it is... And apparently Jake is fitting the role nicely. Perhaps I have a replacement? HAH, as if. Joey's mother wouldn't let go of me that easily. Either way... So finally I said that I wouldn't mind going. And he asked if I wanted to go to church with them or not, and I laughed. Then he said that Jake was going with them, and I laughed one more but for a different reason. I said that I didn't feel like burning the moment I stepped into the church, but he reminded me that I did go to church with them before. Still... There isn't enough holy water in the world. . .

I dunno.
It just all amused, and amuses me to no end.
*siiigh*
I really hate making decisions.